I've been listening to The Ecology Book recently in the hope that I can rekindle my relationship with the environment. I live in a city and don't have much of a relationship with nature, other than a bit of gardening. This seems less than adequate to me.
I used to be very energetic and motivated about the topic of protecting earth. I even went as far as studying a degree in environmental management in the hope that I might be able to provide earth with some reprieve of the incessant abuse it gets as a consequence of current human existence. This way of thinking sometimes gets me into a very defeatist frame of mind, particularly when you realise the challenges that planet earth faces.
I've been down the train of thought many times, that the best course of action might be to eliminate myself as a starting point, given that one less human animal would be a good thing. Lead by example as it were, perhaps other human-animals might follow suit, for the greater good as it were.
Once being on this train for a while, you might catch another which leads to the thought that perhaps it doesn't matter anyway. I say this because, although we have a strong self-preservation instinct, we are all somewhat insignificant when looked at from the scale of the universe. So if human-animals destroy the habitat they occupy, then perhaps that's okay, because given current knowledge of how ecosystems work, the earth will be re-colonised by other biota, and perhaps if this doesn't happen, then so be it.
It's just frustrating that the way of life we have become accustomed to always has some link to a negative activity on earth. As an example, I'm using a laptop which is made of plastic and other metals and a few hazardous materials too. This laptop uses electricity (I do use a provide that uses renewable energy, but even that has some negative effect somewhere) and connects to servers and other magical tools which I have no clue about. Do you see what I'm saying. All I'm doing is recording my thoughts, but it leaves a footprint. Is this bad? Does it matter?
I saw on Twitter yesterday haw China seems to be getting poised to annex Taiwan. How can human-animals be so intent on achieving futile goals.
I have to go, and talk to my brother about money. How ironic.
I'm on the hamster wheel ...
